funk-y

My life lately is pretty darn good!  I am down 32 pounds since September. I've recently cleaned out every room and closet in my house and have begun painting.  I am working hard to fund raise for my upcoming trip to Rome and Madrid in August.  I have not one, but 2 trips to Florida in the next few months. I have learned to begin to love myself and accept myself for me, and I am mostly at peace with the fact that I am single. 

But despite all the good things going on in my life (and there are many more) today I find myself in a funk.  Today was a snow day, and we were supposed to get 12+ inches of snow, of which only 7 or so came, and normally a snow day is a very great thing for me, a teacher, but since I woke this morning I have been fighting a funk within.  I found myself wishing that I had a family to spend this snow day with and felt a little bit alone.  And as I allowed myself to dwell on that I noticed my pity party slowly beginning to form.  Poor me...

Now I've made the conscious effort to quit dwelling on the have not and to focus on the haves, but I would be lying if I said, I have completely turned my mood around.  I think I realize two things today: One, even when life is really good, we are going to have bad days and Two: It's important to not dwell in misery and instead to choose to fight it.  I know tomorrow morning when I wake up it is going to be a new day and I will once again have a lot to be thankful for and I also know that watching depressing movies or listening to solemn ballads is not going to make anything better. 

And as I was finally taking a hot shower this afternoon, I heard in the whispers of my heart the Lord speak to me through my favorite verse of scripture (paraphrased) "Erin, remember the plans that I have for you.  Plans for welfare, not for woe.  All you need to do is keep coming to me and I will change your lot." (Jeremiah 29:11-13a)  I am reminded that in our weakness, He makes us strong.  And as The Shirelles put it so perfectly, "Mama said there'd be days like this,"  but it's up to me to fight the pity party, put my hand in the Lord's and trust that the "Sun will come out tomorrow."